I have found some comfort in all the postings. I knew this was coming, we have no children so we both put so much time and energy into our relationship with her. I lost my love Emma 4 months ago. Thx 4 ur post- I'm still grieving the lost of my Molly... she past away the previous Tuesday & I still cry like a baby every time I'm home alone, Red cattle dog. I cannot understand. Ragsy was dirty, he was malnourished, under weight, he needed a haircut and he had ticks and fleas. It was being built when she was just a puppy and we used to come walking every day it was being constructed to get to know the neighborhood. I too understand. During the walk he used the bathroom and immediately I noticed bright red blood on his stool. Audrey Kirchner (author) from Washington on May 18, 2019: Oh lord, Caroman - that is a wonderful thought about them being angels. Answer: I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my dog Miley a year ago as well (10/10/17) I only had her for about 3 years but in that time my parents split and i had to move away from close friends. When I turned 21, my partner and I adopted a rescue dog and we called her Bonnie, she was beautiful. He gave me a routine, a reason to go on cause I didn’t want to neglect him. He was my therapy dog without me knowing I needed one. I just lost my dog 5 days ago and it is the worst I have ever felt. I miss her so much. My dog was called pepsi he was 11 year yorkie and he was sick so my mum took him to the vet and they said he had kidney failure so they were giving him treatment but he was to weak and had no energy to move so my mum had to put him to sleep which was the best thing to do. The last thing he did was struggle to lift his head, look for me and then looked right in my eyes like he always did-to let me know everything would be OK. I will get another dog when the time is right and I know I can fall in love again. When we got home Ginger wouldn’t take her heart med with her food, then I noticed her gums turned blue, rushed back to vet, she was stabilized and they would keep her overnight. I think if his sight had gone gradually he would have learnt how to adjust but it went all of a sudden & he didn’t know what had happened. Now I’m the one that is suffering. I kept leaving out dog biscuits and chicken broth. He slept in bed with us, sat in a chair at the picnic table. I cry so hard i almost vomit. Do whatever you need to do to get through. And it’s true. I truly believe that. I also lost my 15 yr old fur baby on Sept 17th 2018. Sending you virtual hugs and hope that you will find peace with your tough, tough decision. Thank you dearly. I took him for sausage and egg in the morning. As a 54 year old man, I thought I was too tough to cry. I lost my beloved Gus on May 21st. Our vet said it was the right thing to do. I wish dogs lived forever. He just went too soon for my heart to accept but life is just life sometimes. She is in every room in my house. This can … We pulled the car over and pet him and talk to him and cried told him we love him in case his brain was still working we wanted him to feel comfort in our voices. Tigerlilly was everything that I did things for. My English Setters, Pepper and Jack, were put down two days ago. There will Never be another dog like her. His back legs gave out on him the day he turned 13, wanting to make sure we did everything we could, we tried 3 different medications but nothing worked had to put him to sleep. I miss my little girl so much and my life is broken beyond repair. “You’re not gonna see me again. I lost my beautiful English Bulldog of 9 years last Thursday. My husband is traveling for business this week and I am dreading coming home at the end of the workday. I feel your pain on 7/21/20 i had to put my black lab down after a long fight with aggressive cancer she was just so tired at the end and i miss her everyday and wish i could just see her and hug her one last time she left me too soon and left me hurting in a way ive never felt before. May she rest in peace. I just lost my dog Eddie almost three weeks ago, and although I’ve lost human friends and family, this is the worst grief I’ve ever felt. I guess not…. omg, your dog looks like mine. It is good to get out and about - to keep the memories at bay - but I will tell you that for me, no matter where I went, it crept in. I love you Rudy and feel I am with still you on this side and the other some day. It might save your dogs life. Now we are torn apart. But no; dear Rosie, I have no claim on shining eyes, and soft, soft hair. It was very aggressive and had grown and spread within a span of only six days. There is a deep ache in my chest. I lost my baby boy, my beautiful chocolate lab Cooper 1,000 hours ago @ 6:08 am on 7/4/18. I’m nursing him and frustrated with the training but nothing is going right. Haven’t slept for 5 nights with worrying about her and feel so ill. My dog was looking into my eyes as she died and I carried her warm body out to the car before falling into a howling, on-my-knees trance I didn’t emerge from for months. We had to put down our dog Lucy this past Sunday. He went very quickly and peacefully. Yes we got angry when you messed on the floor. I’m bereft and never thought I’d ever use that word,bereft. How does someone finally move on? Several vets have told me this vaccine is associated with this type of reaction. We had her until she was 16 or 17 years old and died right before Griffin. I look at his pictures, watch videos of him, and even have made greeting cards that I give to other people and have canvases that I had made of him to remind me how he is still part of my life and my heart. We just try and own up to it, feel it, acknowledge it, but then try and move on to a plateau of sorts I think. The last four days we changed his bed several times as he had no control over his bowels when the day came for him to be youthinized, the only thing that saved me was the dignity and respect the vet hospital gave to both Trapper and my husband and I. His fur was so soft that I can still almost feel it when I look at his pictures. I think that grief hits us all a bit differently. I am suffering so much right now. With three dogs at home, one day I arrived home to find dog #4. But she looked in Skips ears and didn’t see ear infection. She was 16.5 years old and had been battling illness for sometime. “ I loved you best, my sweet boy”. When we came home he started vomit again, it was like blood and dark brown vomit and it was horrible to see him suffering. The first time, they did an X-ray to confirm arthritis in her hip. I see her empty bed, and I am so sad. 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